CINNAMASTA off with her head

The past few week's energies of full moon, lions gate, eclipse, astrological alignment, heat waves and now approaching the next full moon brings reflections on Glen Hansard, Trump, Prince Harry, kundalini rising and the modern human condition of emotional hunger for connection in cultures of materialism

The heatwave of UK has felt to me like the lock down of covid, otherworld, strange, not normal, a sort of strange energy portal, both instigated by the manipulators and yet at the very same time serving the higher good, just like intense emotional pain can actually lead to liberation, but also the same quality of nothingness in the air, a quality of a pause (transition) like on an air plane where no one can call or message you, not in one life and not in the other, something coming, nerves at what it might be, feeling big, and cld be really really bad (biometrics on borders, angry men in military centres, data centres on ley line portals, food shortages from weather manips and chemtrl etc etc) but maybe maybe it might be okay too, the dark mirrors the light and in end may actually serve the light.

it is all an inner job,

and our own darkness when we sit with it, it liberates us more.

so big things afoot in this portal of the past few months, and this heatwave, big pause, but moment, and yes, indeed, a portal it is.

Cinnamasta is a fearsome goddess who is headless. Her red blood is the sushumna pouring up into 3, the 2 either side collected by 2 handmaidens. The symbol also of the fleur de lis, the many secret societies of the royal courts of race, the templars (masons) and essenes tracing their kundalini knowledge of symbolism back to egypt whose rites are from the same civilisations that went into the lands now called India.

Hunger.

Emotional hunger is the condition that Glen Hansard spoke frequently about in his poetry, the desire for connection. Glen seemed to be a man who met more people in one week than many might in one year, and it appears how well loved and connected with them all he was through both his persona and his music, and yet here he was talking about the pain of separation and the deep hunger for connection.

His recent passing was at a sacred ley in Ireland by the goddess rivers (poetically returning to the goddess) at auspicious time of the full moon 14 days before the eclipse and 3 years 3 days sync to sinead o'connor who exposed many truths of the irish famines and church. His reflections on the hunger condition mirror those of any great artist, poet or seeker, in their attempt to relinquish the ego, the i self, the hunger and illusion, which all comes down to connection versus separation, the search for the 'ahhhh i am home' moment that one gets from a dopamine hit of lets say tobacco or for some running, shopping and of course sex.

on the wheel of desire, never fully satisfied ( can’t get no satisfaction) until one day like siddhartha himself, we have to sit with the god awful pain looking for fulfilment.

and then.

Then we realise that the sexual energy which seeks to be satisfied is the spiritual energy of kundalini and can only be truly satisfied when it is risen up the 33 spine and transmuted.

through the heart and the pineal.

then the true work begins.

and the anger the sacred rage that comes with that emotional hunger to satisfy itself may erupt, up until then kept in check through the dopamine hits and subsequent repression and depressions.

anger, rage, the sacred rage.

rage

that we were born free with abundance of foods and waters

but that not only were they poisoned, the springs closed over, the herbs said to be weeds, and then on top of that not only were they sold to us in poisoned form with money we had to work hard for and then on top of that, to pay taxes.rage to see just how sacred the sexual energy is and how fractured and poisoned it has become and just how evil that is not to mention one thousand other things to rage about.

Cinnamsasta loses her head, because she must die, just like mary magdalene who carries the skull or John the Baptist and so forth. Decapitation of many goddesses in executions such as Marie Antoinette was indeed a ritual sacrifice on leys, that begs questions.

Decapitation can be seen as the dissolution of ego - that is freedom from trauma & illusion, freedom from glen's hunger to belong, freedom from emotional hunger and consumption for satisfaction through non satisfying substances, foods, material objects, people things …. which in themselves then also create more hunger (sugar). Losing the mind, the thoughts, the egos that enslave us from within (as mirrored without in the mother matrix)

Decapitation can also be seen as the opposite and being locked INTO the head (which computers and AI serve to do - everything these days means being on a computer and locking the head into the digital world) and so on the contrary decapitation is about total enslavement into the ego prison

In meditation when one sits with no mind it can be two fold

On the one hand silence in empty mind can be grounded freedom, presence, total oneness with all and sexual energy is transmuted into the liberating space of nothing

One the other hand in empty mind one can be completely dissociated, not present, absent form body, a state that is common place from trauma

Both are similar and yet so different

One is grounded, it is a bridge between earth and heaven

The other is ungrounded.

Many on the spiritual path oscillate between the 2 and must learn the difference.

Which can only come through practice, sitting in meditation. Mary Magdalene once said to me, go up and out, receive the light then bring it back down and earth it. (pineal) or of course we can go right down and in (heart and womb) Cinnamasta shows us how to be both at the very same time.

As I think about this today I see the headline in a newspaper in my local shop, prince harry coming home. It made me smile. To leave the home and publicly slander and vilify it, but in the end he wants to come back to the homeland and raise his own children in it. And the goddess mother welcomes her child unconditionally with open arms, the home.

Like this symbolism, the very things we run from all our lives, are the key to our freedom. The things that make us disassociated are the very things that when we sit with the god awful pain then we can truly lose the head in an embodied way and die to the ego. Just like the things that make you fall in love with someone become the very things that make you fall out of love with.

There is no running from the pain. do you sit and feel it but risk drowning

do you try and go into headless nothing of meditation but risk being disassociated

or can you do both and can you sit with it and go into headless nothing at same time

and Cinnamasta shows me how the key through the pain is to go through the heart.

that as we accept the emotional hunger we can allow all with indifference ie not dissociated acceptance, but genuine 'okay you fucked me over and I forgive you' type of acceptance, so we feel the hunger / hurt / pain and go through the heart.

Trump recently talked about magnets, put your money in magnets, I will make you rich, referring to digital development etc and yet the magnet is the feminine.

The feminine silently wounded and vilified.put your money in magnets.can your own masculine solar active energy connect in and hold your inner hurts, cradle and support her voice, light her up by holding her and loving her

Can you hold and love your inner emotions and care for self

put your money in magnets

listen to the deep inner snake of the subconscious hurts

and allow her to show you the way through the heart

the way through is not by solar active repression of her as humans have done for so long

but by listening being present with emotional pain

as compost for the tree

sit with pain go through heart

mother welcomes you home

no matter what

goddess is through the 33 and only she can liberate you

nothing else will liberate or satisfy you

nothing

so put your money in magnets

it is not out there this demonisation of the goddess

this slavery system of taxes and working hard to buy poisoned water

it is all within you

the entire universe you see

is inside of you.

can you sit present with the pain, and love yourself

can you be headless and present at same time

this is why self love, self care is the opposite of narcissism (which is lack of it) and in fact the ONLY WAY IS THROUGH

the heart

for you see in self love

your masculine

puts his money in magnets

your solar self listens to your subconscious

and as the alchemist take the hunger pain up the 33

through the heart and pineal

transmuting the sexual creative force

and as you give all to goddess (libration love)

then Goddess (liberation love) will come running to you

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