Our mothers and grandmothers were not able to break free.
They were not able to recognise patterns of narcissism and codependency and gaslighting, they were not able to undo patterns of addiction, low worth and total disconnection from their feelings, they were not able to dive through trauma with recovery and therapy tools like somatic therapy, crystal healing, energy activations, (and the many other hundreds or thousands of modalities on the market, with more and more emerging on a daily basis) they were not able to understand they could make money, be free, become empowered, love themselves so deeply so that they could magnetise healthy love, to not use love to fill but be full within. they were not able to understand any of this let alone spot it and start to heal it.
It is not a simple path to start to undo all this and to redo it all to a new way
It is layer after layer, gate after gate, trauma after trauma and sometimes it seems that the deeper we go the more we unearth
especially in tumultuous times when it is all coming up
we may be forced to be alone for long periods of time to know ourselves so deeply and to find god who is within us
or we know it is time to come out of the cave and to receive love
we need to find balance in everything
to know when to deep dive into the depths
and when to lighten up and play on the surface
balance to know when to give generously and share our leith with others and when to hold things close in our self preservation, worthiness, self respect and love
to know when to say yes and when to say no
and as we walk through these gates, the truth is that none of these wondrous tools we now have at our fingertips will or can do anything to help, until the time is ripe. We can spend years trying to heal something in our bodies and it is not shifting and then one day the relationship breaks up or the job is lost or whatever it is that goes, and then quite miraculously the ache or pain is gone, in the blink of an eye and all the while we realise it was that which was causing the trauma
and yet all that other deep soul digging and madly practise was not in vain for it gave us the tools to navigate our way through the unhappy experiences to get to the point where we were finally ready, in the ways that our mothers and grandmothers never were able to be
to remind us that our deep sorrows and pains, resentments hurts angers longing loneliness, is just a part of the wheel
For on this path we are told we need to stand in the centre of the wheel, patriarchal spirituality calls this mastery of emotion which can even be denial and repression of emotion, disassociation or escapism in the name of spirituality, but in the way of the feminine we embrace the emotion, we allow the feeling. And ironically it is the very act of allowing ourselves to feel that pain, that enables us to sit in the centre of the wheel to be free of all of it. But the goal cannot be to be free from it, the goal is simply to allow ourselves to feel it and not spend our life running from it
Our mothers and grandmothers ran
and we cannot blame them
for it was not safe for them to feel
it was not allowed and it was not accepted
they were caught in webs of cultural expectations, money, health, security that kept them tied into emotional bondage in turn the only way for them to reclaim a nuance of a sense of power was through manipulation and control, the toxic feminine is the wounded feminine the toxic masculine is the wounded masculine
he knows not what he does
she knows not what she does
and so now
for our mothers and grandmothers, for our fathers and grandfathers
for our future children to pass onto them the codes
the codes of abundance, the codes of health, the codes of healthy union
we do the inner work
and it is not an easy task
Yes when all is ripe, then healing happens in the blink of an eye
but until then, we plough on
dedicated to finding that root
doing the work
gathering the tools to light our way
modality after modality
prayer after prayer
meditation after meditation
each one another little step
and it is not a quick path
the medicine some take which takes one to the top of the mountain quickly, often spews you out at the bottom again
so it is always better to slowly go up one step at a time
one step at a time
one step at a time we slowly learn how to listen again
how to love
how to feel
and each gate and each layer, there is more pain, trauma, stress, drama, and often it seems the deeper we go the harder it gets
because we get closer to the root
we are going there, into the feeling
and so when one gets close, it can be raw
but in this whole process
the gifts at each gate are also great:
hearing the souls whispers, accessing the higher realms, communion with the body, learning to spot the initiations, the tests, the lessons saying ‘you got this time around?’ learning to spot the narcissist, the gaslighting, the projections, taking full responsibility and self honesty, recognising the poverty and victim modes and drama roles and traumas (which absolute worth and forgiveness)
to come into deep deep wisdom
and the great joy and freedom
yes joy that comes from freedom
from wisdom
freedom
what is freedom?
being able to do what we want when we want
and to know that we can
we can
for our mothers our grandmothers, our fathers and our grandfathers, who could not
and for our children, who will
and for ourselves
we lead the way
we create new webs
new grids
new realities
and so we plough on through the layers
because we can do this
we are
and we can
my deepest reverence is for every single one of you walking this very deep and often difficult path back to wholeness
that you know that you must
that is your calling
may you remember
you can do it
and you do it for all
you got this
and you are so held and loved and supported by so many
far more than you can ever imagine
not just by your entire teams of spirit guides
and your soul families and lineages
and your past life families from thousands of previous lives on this and other planets
but also the entire generation after generation of ancestors in this life tree, all the way back to the beginning of time
they have all have got your back, and are with you cheering you on
every single little step of the way
for this is the time of the prophecy
and so you understand and remember
how each simple meditation or healing or prayer or therapy session
each time you sit with trauma or pain, loss loneliness,
each and every struggle
and each and every leap and breakthrough in money or love or health
has far more impact on the world right now
than anything you can ever imagine
as you step into abundance and dance the new codes into your being
you create a frequency, a frequency that is a revolution
you create a ripple of abundance in the grids of the world
as you do it for self, you do it for all
that is how important it is you become abundant
and free
for your mothers and grandmothers who could not
and so the children can
dear one, as you heal yourself
you really do heal the world
and slowly your mothers and grandmothers
fathers and grandfathers
start to smile
for you see
you do it for them
you free them too
and change the stories
because you can
and so remember that if you want to change the world
then first go within
blessings, love to all xxx
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